I Stood Misunderstood...

16/08/07
Man is a SOCIAL ANIMAL….
The aforesaid is NOT a UNIVERSAL FACT.
I am bent on defying this so called “FACT”. And I somehow seem to do justice to my beliefs.
There are people who are my world, my life. My heart beats for them…
But lately I guess I am living in this Wonderland, in the Fools Paradise cause I am away from my world now. I am living a life that was never destined to be mine… perhaps my heart has stopped beating now.
Am I dead??
I don’t think so… my senses are still alive. I can still FEEL… I just don’t tend to acknowledge the most important things any more, because when I look beyond to my LIFE, all that I see is too minute to be realized or understood…

If I am living without the reasons for my life itself… am I living after all??? I still debate with myself many a times whether I miss the old days or not. Though I am adamant enough to convince the whole world that I don’t find anything missing…. But do I feel this way too….????
Disappointingly…. YES… I DO!!!
People I am away from are now untouched I know…
But will we ever touch each other again…???
Will the life ever come back again…???
Will the heart ever beat again…???

Yet again I say… that I don’t really care… why should we CARE anyway? I have learnt a very important lesson from this life….
NOTHING LASTS FOREVER….
Then why put your heart and soul into anything that will not remain… it might go away with one who goes… who can stop either…??? None can!! Is it a mandate to act this way or that in what everyone calls LIFE???
Why should we care enough to love? To understand… to support… to provide and to receive….???
We are all self-sufficient for any of it!!! Are we not capable enough to love ourselves…??
Why unnecessarily take the pains to explain to the world?
If they don’t understand.. is it not their DRAWBACK..???
Why take the unnecessary guilt trips and place someone at a place where you EXPECT yourself to be too in the eyes of that other (in the normal world)
I don’t care if I am MISUNDERSTOOD!!!!
In fact I LOVE being misunderstood. I would throw it as a challenge in the other person’s face to understand me…
If I take the pains of explaining or justifying myself to one person, then whole world would think I am liable to do so for them too… WHY SHOULD I?

Do you think that you are actually answerable to anybody besides yourself..???
If you think YES... The you are still at the mercy of many a minds. Minds which might not even propose to understand you even once. They would rather monopolize to conceive of you as they please. And why should a state as that arise any how?
All they will ever make you realize is the wrongs,(it might be all rights for you though).. but when you flatter them with the liberty to opinionate about you… you consequentially flatter them with the liberty to imprint those opinions in your mind as well…
And like a stupid fool you keep on accepting it all as an obligation…
I don’ really think I have lost too much… maybe I have… but I like to believe that I gained a sense of pride in myself …

The whole world may call me crazy and stubborn just as much as they think they’re wise…
But for them and for me too…. I will remain to be in my Fools Paradise…